Growing up, Lauren Book recalls that a pall of privacy veiled their own families.
Her mother lived with a mental illness. Her leader, a foremost Florida lobbyist concerned with his public personality, realise one thing very clear to her: What happened inside the Book household must stay private by any means necessary.
“He said, ‘We don’t talking here happenings that happen in this house, ‘” Book told NPR in 2012. “That lodged with me always.”
That sense, Book says, also made her vulnerable to insult. When Book’s nanny — a woman she called Waldy — began to touch her inappropriately “when shes” 12 years old, Book felt like she had no one to turn to.
“You feel invisible, ” Book says, “because if anybody actually saw you they wouldn’t allow the things that were happening to you to happen.”
The abuse continued for years.
Even after Book informed her parent about it and her nanny was detained, the pain that Waldy inspected upon her continues to take a physical charge . strong>
Because of how Waldy had operated her, Book was wracked with guilt over communicating “the one person who loved her” to confinement. As a solution, she started engaging in self-mutilation and eventually developed anorexia.
It made times for Book to heal and recognize that what had happened to her wasn’t her fault.